Over the past year, I have lost that loving feeling….for sports and it is sad. Actually, it has been occurring for a bit longer than that and really started with the beginning of the steroids era in baseball. However, the realization that more likely than not, probably every team cheats, and probably every player cheats in some way, in every sport.
Yes, I still watch sports. I would still probably rather watch a good baseball game than just about anything else. But I can no longer watch it with the same enthusiasm and love of the games that I once had. The great plays, the wins, great accomplishments, championships – they no longer hold the same feelings for me that they once did. I have also lost my enthusiasm for writing about sports because everything I think I want to write about I can no longer find the joy in it.
Sure I could fake it. I could write about sports every day of the week but most of what I would write I wouldn’t believe or wouldn’t really care about. Eventually I wouldn’t be able to come up with fake enthusiasm or the joy that I once had. It’s like losing a part of my life. A part that at times I’ve been paid to do and at times I did only for the love of it.
I have had many people tell me that I should just forget about the fact that no sports are untainted by the stain of cheating and just go back to the oblivious watching and writing. I know this is what most people do. Most people who watch sports or participate in sports in any way push the cheating aspects out of their minds in favor of wins and money….because really that’s all that matters right?
I have come to realize that this behavior is in a nutshell the epitome of the representation of our society and all of it’s problems. It’s just one more extension of these behaviors. People are rude and disrespectful and we allow it to continue by saying it is expected and we should just accept it. People who want to erase symbols of history rather than confronting the truth in their own hearts. All of the evils of the world. We see them, we post our obligatory “isn’t that awful” comments on social media, and then we go back to not caring or doing anything to make a difference because as long as it’s not happening to us, who really cares right? As long as our team is winning the fans are happy and as long as they are making money everyone else is happy.
Will I continue to watch sports? Probably, but likely not nearly as much and that probably makes me some kind of hypocrite. Will I continue to write about them? I am not sure but as this is the first sports thing I have written in months, it’s not likely. As Lao Tzu once said, “Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”